Tantric experience means neither to be repressive nor to be indulgent. Tantric experience is possible only if you move deep into meditation, otherwise not. When you become very very still, silent, aware, alert, then only is it possible that you will know something of tantra. Otherwise, tantra can also become an excuse for indulgence — a new name, a religious name. And you can move into indulgence behind the name of tantra. Names won’t make much change; your being needs change.